Miss_M

Day 2

Word for the day FUCK IT ALL TO HELL!!!!!
that is how my day is going.

Miss M

Day One

I knew something wasn’t right even before I was fully awake; dreams and reality intermingling to fog my brain. I could hear the sound but it remained a foreign noise in my ear. I struggled to put myself into the present pushing the pain from my body as I rose in my bed. Opening my eyes I saw the light streaming in through window and conciseness clicked into place; it is Monday morning, 6:45 a.m. I jumped out of bed, fumbling in the morning blindness to find my phone and turn the damn alarm clock off. I crawl back into bed and snuggle up next to my boyfriend whose body heat reminds me that Mondays are not all bad. When I finally can’t ignore my alarm at more at 8:15 a.m. I jump out of bed; run down stairs put a load of laundry in the washing machine and make a pot of coffee. Later in the morning I stand in shower letting the hot water temporarily wash the aches and pains away. I know Mondays can’t be all bad by this point in time. I bought a new shirt yesterday so after drying off I put it on, complaining to my boyfriend the whole time about how fat I am looking this morning. He looks at me rather warily this morning and says,

“M you know you are not fat you change your idea of “fat” every other second. Just literally two minuets ago you were complimenting yourself on how your boobs were looking today. I think your beautiful and I don’t think your fat”.

 

He tends to be saint and knows all the right things to say to me.

 

After getting dressed I go back down stairs and pour out two mugs of coffee and we grab our keys and get in the car. I can tell he is just slightly thinking I am taking to long in getting ready but if you think about it I got up at 8:15 and it is now 8:45 and I did all the things I just described. Gosh what can you expect? 

We ride to work trying to stay positive about our day, knowing that since today is Monday we will hit the ground running as soon as we walk in the door. And sure enough before I have even sat down at my desk I have scanned two documents to myself, answered three phone calls and pranced around the office trying to avoid actually working. When I do finally sit down at my desk I do really dive right in and start sending out emails answering all the questions from the weekend and trying to make everyone happy. Then before my head can stop spinning it is time for our weekly team meeting. I grab my note book and run into

Troy

’s office where everyone is gathered and we start the day off with quotes. My is as follows, “Give me a sane man I will make him crazy” I do not know who wrote it but I think it is fantastic. We go through the weekend and everyone gets to talk and say if there is anything that needs to be addressed and then we get down to work. The day starts and cant really tell you much about it except that I had a really good Ruben sandwich for lunch. And now my day has come to an end. I will go home and try to make something really really good for dinner. Maybe I will put some pictures of it up maybe not but now I am leaving work for the day and I am happy beyond belief that we made it through another day without someone killing someone else.

Miss_M

Miss_M

As I embark on this journey of journaling my thoughts, I am excited and apprehensive about where it will take me. i for-see dark valleys and bright hill tops, dangerous roller-coaster rides and pleasant walks through the park. Nothing in life stays the same, the only thing for sure is change. As i twist and turn on this road to self discovery I know my writing will not be eloquent and my thoughts packed full of meaning and feeling, however I know that what I write will be a representation of my life as I see it and how I see it enfolding around me. I do not wish to wow people with my writing, because the knowledge of who you are helps to make you stronger and I know that I can not spell to save my life and my writing lacks the smooth flair to it that some write with, however I am happy and content to write about me and what makes me happy, no matter how good, bad or ugly it may appear.